After we watched our first film, it wasn’t exactly finished but it was evident that we needed to put more work into our film. I wasn’t really content with what we filmed so I thought it needed more work because the scenes didn’t really fit well together so I went home and thought of what I could do to make it better. I was thinking to change the opening sequence and add a few scenes and enhance characterization. There were a lot of failed attempts of filming my story ‘Friends and Foe’s and we hoped to not repeat that mistake for Fate. In the meantime we are fixing the story and the film to make it better. Our progress in creative media was not really on track last term. We needed to film a few more scenes because it’s way too dark. If we had studio lights it would’ve have been worked well but unfortunately we didn’t have access to studio lights, which indeed sucks! If only we had to work on the film project and nothing else it would’ve been easier. The film would look so awesome since we are flexible in putting a lot of time and effort in it. We still need to film a few more scenes. I wrote a shot list to film my death scene. 


Before my group started to film, each person in the class had to write a story then get into groups and films it. Before we did that we had to decide which story we want to film. Well since Elena and Taryn was reluctant to film their stories and said it would be better to do mine which I didn’t really like at all since it was based on boy characters not girls so I immediately knew this was going to be very difficult and we had to adjust things which I didn’t really like either. We tried filming in Australia Fair and it was exactly how I interpreted. Thank God we didn’t continue with the old story! Girls can’t be in this film unless it’s Selena or Serena (forgot the name). So I was very reluctant in filming my story as well. It was really bad and it didn’t work out.

Elena and I thought we should think of a new story. Which we did, we chatted on msn one night and we were brainstorming ideas and eventually came up with a story. We just combined a few elements from the old stories into one. This was very different for me because I’m not a people person and I am a loner so in a way I don’t like working in groups and was not comfortable at all. If I could start all over again, I would write a simple story with me working behind the camera and with other actors to play my character. I was going to do that but I didn’t know we had to work with people specifically in the creative media class. The only problem we’ve encountered is that we needed to film more scenes, re-do a few scenes and try to act better! So it will look awesome when it’s edited. I just wished we did something simple because making a film with horror being the genre is very hard.  

I ended up doing the storyboards since I was jobless for while. Elena was editing the film, Taryn was making the soundtrack and I had to colour correct the film (colour correction) I think ended up with doing the storyboards because I couldn’t color correct until Elena finished editing the film. For as long as I could remember I had this habit where I kept drawing when the teacher talks and I get into trouble for it. I also secluded myself from people and kept drawing random stuff. I guess that was the reason as to why I’m good at drawing. Okay, that just made me sound like some stuck-up drawer. Anyway it was fun, no complaints with drawing. It’s what I do to pass time. In fact I'm thinking of becoming a comic artist...maybe Katie thinks I should. We encounter a lot of issues through out the making of this film…it gets pretty hectic but we fixed things up in the end. The script was mostly improv. Before I slept, I wrote a script and told what my group should say in the scenes we were going to shoot. 

Filming is very difficult especially when you have to film over and over again. But I don’t see how this is a bad thing though because I’m learning a lot and it makes me aware of the mistakes I’ve made in the past and in doing so not making the same mistakes in the future. It’s funny because even with shot lists, it’s hard to figure out how to film. I filmed my scenes, which I hope worked well…I don’t really like being on camera though. When we finish the movie I don’t ever want to see it ever again. Hopefully it doesn’t come back and haunt me in the future especially with the social networks we have now. I knew it wasn’t going to be easy but no one said it would be this hard. I guess it was fun and bottom line is I learned a lot. I’m trying my best to do what I can but I don’t know why I feel a lot of pressure while doing this film.

We encounter so many problems with this film project. It really irritates me that we have to keep reshooting these scenes and never get it right. It looks so simple when you watch Hollywood movies but there is more to the art of movie magic than the film itself. It’s really hard. Hollywood movies have crews and people who are dedicated to their job and they have so much time on their hands. It’s different with just three people making a film with a bunch of assignments to finish. We all have different schedules. We’re always rushing and it was really hard especially when people’s personalities crash into one another. The problem is so many things are out of place and I kept panicking. Bottom line is this project is really hard. Anyways we managed to film what we needed to film. They say hard work pays off and I’m sure it’s true.

I never liked school. I try to but I don't fit in. No one seems to be interested in the things I really love and are more interested in the things I loathe. Social networks, partying, socializing and b.o.y.s. I only have one close friend. I feel like the dude in diary of a wimpy kid. All I'm trying to say is group work is challenging and filming is pretty hectic as usual but I think its dedication that kept me going. The reason why I’m so interested in film because ever since I was small I isolated myself from people and just watched movies. I think that’s really all I do. I don’t excel well in school nor am I a people person. So it's hard waking up and going to school knowing that you have to interact with people. No matter how much I try to be near people the more I want to stay away from them and when it comes to things like this like getting into groups to make a film can be daunting. It also gets pretty stressful and I’m trying to cope with it all. I’m learning a lot of things though, which is beneficial if I wanted to pursue a career in film when I grown up. Time management is probably something I need to work on as well. I'm too slow to catch on...the pressure is on when I do group work and it gets really hard. I have chronic anxiety so I often runaway from big responsibilities because it scares the hell out of me.  


We need to work out the kinks again with our film. We are always filming things over again and over again. Maybe if we do it right for once it’ll be perfect and we won’t have to film over and over again. I was really nervous when our film was going to be shown to the class. I haven't seen the film when it was in it’s finished state. For me it was also nerve-wracking but was very keen to see our film and well what do you know Elena did a fantastic job in editing the film and Taryn did a great job with the music. I think overall the Film was pretty awesome. I'm not one to brag but our film was pure ownage jokes! I guess hard work does pay off. Phewww. I think the only thing we could've worked on if we had the chance to do this film all over again was time management. Thats pretty much all. I mean there were edgy moments but we managed to cope as a team and together we all made film we take pride in. 

Well I think the film does it justice but in terms of reflections I don’t think I do have enough evidence to support my work. I find it hard to find time and write about what I just did. Like other work from other subjects aren’t enough already. I get way too tired and I think it’s because my mind is way too slow to catch up with reality. I’m always somewhere else. I’m never where I’m supposed to be. I’m always dreaming of being somewhere else. So people always tell me, they say “where have you been?” or “earth to Z, hello?” I do work hard when needed but I just find it pointless reflecting on my film every week. That doesn’t mean I didn’t write reflections. I did but it’s almost like what I’m writing is repetitive. I think what I’m writing now is good enough. I think a huge essay on the film written by students at the end of every term should suffice.